Finally on Your Way

Finally after so many times hearing that you aren't coming home on the day that you thought you were, after all the times that it has gotten pushed back time after time. You have finally gotten on the plane that is bringing you back to the U.S. this morning was a mess. Your plane got delayed and then you switched planes. You had to get searched and searched. You are so tired and so stressed out but you are finally on your way home. I am so thankful that the time has finally come. I am so happy that I am finally excited for you to come home. It's only a little over 12 hours until I finally get to go with your parents to the airport and get to finally see  you. I am so ready to hug you, hold your hand, get to look into your eyes, know how tall you are, what your voice really sounds like, and what it is like to see you without the white walls of your room behind you when we skype. Babe I am so ready for you to come home. I can't wait from years from now we can look back and be so thankful that we are living together and not have to worry about any more plane rides between us. I love you so much babe. I am praying your flights will go so well and you get your sleep. I can't tell you how much I love you and I can't wait to finally get a picture with you that I can cherish forever.

31 days

It was finally 31 days left until you came home for the first time and I was so excited. I remember being on the missions trip all excited to call you to say we finally only have a month left, but before I could say it then you beat me to it but said something way worse. No wrap... so your time got pushed back... now it was going to be longer than a month until you were coming home. I swear every phone call we had after that for 2 weeks something would always change and our time coming up together is going to be shorter and shorter. I am just waiting for it to poof disappear. I knew that this was a possibility and that they can approve his leave and take it away as he is getting on the plane but I just did not think it was going to happen. I thought everything was going to be okay and great and everything would go according to plan, but it didn't. I need to learn to be okay with it. But anyways now today July 23, 2019 we officially have 31 days until you come home and I can finally see you, I can finally hug you, I can finally know what it is like to be around you. I am so so excited for this. I hope nothing gets changed!

One of the moment when I realized how much I love you

Last night I had a girlfriend moment. We were having one of our sleepovers and I came back into my room after playing ping pong and I saw you there on my I Pad peacefully sleeping and I was just stopped in my tracks and starting crying. I realized how lucky I am to have you and realizing at any moment you could change your mind and get up and walk away scares the shit out of me but you have been here for this long and I am oh so thankful to have you here in my life and being able to share all my memories with you make them just that much better. I stood there in that moment realizing how much I really loved you. I have never had that kind of overwhelming feeling of love come over me like that before. I can't believe no girl has snatched you up for good before me because you are the most caring, kind, and loyal guy in the world by far. No one in the world deserves to be loved in the way that you love everyone. You are more than the best man ever. No one will ever receive as much love from someone as you give to everyone. I am so jealous of all the people you have known for the last couple years because they are so lucky to have gotten all your love. I cannot believe though that i will get to be loved by you and get to love you for the rest of our lives. I am so thankful for you. More than words can ever describe. I love you bunches Kodi!

How it all began

It all started back in 2018 we match on tinder (still have no clue why I let myself on that site) and we talked a little. You tried to get to know me but I was very rude to you and shut you down and tried to push you away. You never let that happen though. You always came back messaging me at just the right times. I always opened up to you so fast, and I had no clue why I told you every little detail and secret that I had. I always thought that you were just one of those guys that would just come and go. I eventually caught feelings for you but you were about to leave for BMT and I knew I could not handle not talking to you for that long and I never wanted to be a military wife. I never could have imagined that for myself. So I let you leave and tried to move on. I had got myself a boyfriend but still found myself constantly thinking about you and missing you even though we haven't talked in 8 weeks which felt like a life time. I thought I could just forget about you if I did not talk to you even after you came back. I wish I would have slid up the night you were home and had a bonfire. I wanted to come see you so bad but knew the guy I was dating at the time would kill me because he already knew something was up once you came home. Fast forward to February 2019 one day I randomly get this message from you. I get excited as usual. The smiles quickly turn into tears as I start reading this message saying that you wanted to let me know how you felt and that you were interested in me. That was so far by far the best day of my life. Without hesitation I knew I wanted to be with you I forgot about all my hesitations before. So I go break up with the guy I was dating (thanks for helping me with that by the way) and you became my number 1 priority. At that time I did not think that we would be where we are now (and it is only May 2019). Very quickly I gave up the fight of "oh I want to wait till you are home for you to ask me out". I am so very happy I did throw that idea out the window. I then very quickly met your family for my valentines day present (still think that you "messed the address up" just so I could go meet them). I am so happy I have met them though because they are beyond amazing. From that point it has been lots of Skype calls after school and on my break at work, lots of meeting different people in your family, lots of mac n cheese dates and movie dates, and lots of love. For our 1 month you had your mom and me go get our nails done and you even got me flowers, and I am oh so grateful for that. For our 2 month we spent it together watching the movie 'A interview with God'. This is where you learned I suck at watching movies, but I promise I will work on not talking as much through them. I have even gotten to spend time on the holidays with your family which is so much of a blast.


I wish I would have let my guard down sooner. I am so lucky to have found you Kodi. I can't wait to make so many memories with you from now until forever. I love you so  much!

This is for you

I wish I would have started this the day you sent me that message. I wish I was better at this than what I am but I want to make sure you always know how much I love you from no matter where you are in the world. This blog will have our story and tell you all the ways I love you Kodi so when I am old you can go back and tell it to me when I forget. I love you so much!